in elizabeth gilbert’s book eat. pray. love. she takes a break from the world and visits 3 countries. while in italy she abandons her connections to yoga and indulges in everything consumable. as a result, at the end of her stay, she has gained some weight and movingly states that, “there is more of me that exists.”
before moving to the philippines i was thoroughly obsessed with the gym and creating a connection to a healthier bien. all of that, has gone out the window.
when i first moved here, i tried. i really did. but the food is just so amazing … might as well.. right!?! haha.. my time here has truly been a blessing, not only to my tummy but to my personal legend (5 points if you get the reference! )
one day while i was commuting, i began smiling incessantly. i was just floored by God’s provisions. i just kept saying in my head, “i am by myself. in the philippines. doing what i love. i am by myself. in the philippines. doing what i love.”
i joked to my friends before i left that i was about to be malnourished, referencing my last long term visit here. but when i got here, i saw that God had other plans. He had called me here not only to do volunteer work (He surprised me though with Typhoon Ondoy), but to also experience His blessings and healing through good people, food, and confidence – on a missionaries budget nonetheless (insert immense gratitude to those who have fed me, given me rides, and housed me)
as this year has been about personal reflection and change, i continue to define & reconnect to myself out here. i have finally found peace in a balance between taking care of myself, while still working for the community. i have pushed out fear in the face of a true Love i never knew existed. staying connected to art, laughter, and Light – i feel heavier in every sense of the word.
i am full with life and purpose. possibility and passion. rice and gravy 🙂
there is more of me that exists
…and i am falling in love with every new inch.
p.s. i still haven’t figured out how i feel about Christmas starting in september here (more Christmas for me or is it too early!?!) .. if i bust out my Christmas playlist before thanksgiving…that means i approve 🙂