just call me..MASTER

day 10. conquered.

so it all began with paksiw. lechon to be exact. when my cousin jill came home for 2 months it was nothing but lechon, cheetos, quesedillas, yo gabba gabba, tv, internet, and more lechon. when we went to the philippines we upgraded the experience to a different country and more cultural foods – garlic smothered crispy pata, every type of inahaw bbq, pillows (chocolate filled chips), mango juice, and pandesal (every morning about 5 rolls to be exact). O M G. by the time jill left, although thankfully she had gotten me through a tough time in my life, regretfully i felt like a walking tub of lard.

enter: the master cleanse. 10 days of laxative tea, a salt water flush, and a strict spicy lemonade diet.

i did it for a few reasons:

1. i told myself, “i could never do that!” thus, i had to do it. haha i hate being told i can’t.

2. 3 types of crispy pata in one week. seriously? if i didnt cleanse, these moments of craziness woulda haunted my tum tum forever.

3. detox and indulge. my theme for this personal season has been to “indulge” : in the city, in art, fashion, God, relationships, adventure, overall life and importantly, my health. and to indulge (and essentially invest) in my health meant that i had to detox and get things straight in terms of my approach to eating.

4. discipline. i suck at discipline. i am the number one procrastinator and excuse maker – esp when i make rules for myself. “im gonna read one chapter a day” “i’m not gonna eat sugar for 3 months!” haha..this is was to prove to myself that i have the self control and will power necessary to finish the cleanse.

and i do 🙂

today is my last day, and i feel freakin accomplished haha i’ve learned so much about myself and the things i am capable of. from being able to take the salt water flush to the discipline of a rigorous early routine – these days have definitely stretched me.

the first couple of days i was not only so tired and caffeine deprived but also amazed by how much i think about food! haha.. everything is centered around food in my life and while food is cultural, it shouldnt be the reason i live.

in not eating, and surviving the boiling crab, dnbs, the oyster bar (OMG) – i was able to focus on relationships and talking to everyone..rather than focusing on what i ordered. i also realized that i do not need food to be happy.. haha you laugh, but im totally the fat bastard from austin powers! AND i can thrive on natural energy. after the 5th day hump, i had so much natural energy, i felt like doing cartwheels (i settled for a high jump kick due to my vertigo haha).

[random TMI note: after 9 days of not eating ..you still are going ..to the bathroom haha..and i can’t help but wonder, “what the heck is left in there!?!”]

i honestly dont know how much i weigh now cuz i didn’t want it to be about that so i didn’t and haven’t weighed myself. all that matters is that i feel lighter, cleaner, and ready to make a lifestyle change in the way i eat and approach food.

thank you to everyone who kept me sane these past 10 days ..for encouraging me, educating me, hiding your food, and lying to me about how it tasted haha we shall celebrate soon enough 🙂

i heart you food but no more abusive relationship..and no more cheetos for breakfast 🙂

for those who are interested: GARLIC SMOTHERED CRISPY PATA ..you live forever in my heart

awesomeness of my life

i had hella things i wanted to write about .. my quick hiatus in the city..alicia and my quiet obsession with her desperation..detox and indulging. but alas, its always something else that truly moves me to take a moment and share.

lin manuel miranda.

swoooon. haha lin manuel is the writer of the musical in the heights. in the heights is an amazing, shall i say riverting, musical about life in washington heights and is pivotal being the only musical on broadway talking about immigration, hip hop, people of color, gentrification and community. growing up on musicals like cats, sound of music, and grease i have seen my share of cheesy ameriKKKan musicals (that i love fsho) but this one straight shifted my paradigm. ..to see a stage with a cast of color, talking about dilemmas, identities, questions i could relate to – damn..it was just dope. haha im not too articulate tonight eh? just think PCN on crack .. its 60% in rap. the dancers look like they could be on ABDC. and theyre talking about themes a privileged audience would never otherwise would have heard of …. dope. right?

anyway.. lin manual started writing this musical his sophomore year in college and finished it by the time he was 26. won 4 tonys. exudes swag. was on sesame street. FREESTYLED his tony acceptance speech. and. AND!! performed at the first ever white house poetry slam. damn. need i say more? oh yea, he’s marrying his high school sweetheart. CMAN!!! this man has articulated feelings into a show .. has validated our existence on Broadway .. and keeps striving to be innovative and meaningful and revolutionary…no para sige sige 😉

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to close some april lovelies ❤

” And when you have the courage to advance confidently in the direction of you dreams, you begin to draw upon the power of the universe…life gives you what you ask of it. It is always listening.” (thanks lie for this weeks daily mantra)

max wagner..you make reality worth savoring

the coolest bookends i've seen..i heart the dragon!

disney for days

its called the wipe shirt..the black corner on the bottom is special fabric to wipe your glasses and phone..amazing!

– best indulged w:

black mermaid: esthero. from the west side with love.

sex therapy f/ luda. que and dawn. all is well. rude boy.

there goes my baby. nujabes everything.  unthinkable.

wale: pretty girls. –